Nothing changes

Well it has been a long time since i posted here. Life got a little out of hand. Though my family is doing great and we have managed to stay afloat financially, it has come at a cost. The one and only thing that i wanted out of this world was to make this one particular person happy as she is the world to me, and i couldn't do it. Through only my own actions i have made someone despise the place they are at in life. Unintentionally, yes. But neglectfully so. I have to change my ways and be more responsive to others. I have to hold my tongue and let others have the floor. I have to listen more to what is around me and not comment so heavily. I have.....to change. I want her to laugh wholeheartedly again. whether it is in my arms or another.
I am a broken man looking for answers. Holding back the tears is one thing. But having to know that she is that unhappy is truly the worst. Each day is getting worse. i only hope there is light at the end of this tunnel that is life.

SISTERS

Well my 2 year old has sure taken a liking to her little sister. she is constantly letting me know when she is crying, getting me a pacifier, etc. She really is growing up so fast.

TIME IS FLYING BY

Well I am a dad again! i meant to post an update when she was born, but here it is a month later. better late than never. My new daughter Paige

Playing catch up

Wow! I can't believe it has been so long since i last wrote on here. Well things are heating up quick. My wife is pregnant again and is due in April. Wholly cow. life is moving fast. In the last year i finally got one of my Architectural exams done and passed! i hope to get several done this coming year. i only have 4 years left to pass them all. My daughter is amazing, i never knew how much fun she could be. the house is getting tight and now with the next baby on the way i need to rearrange some things again. ugh. the construction will begin again soon....

THE NEW YEAR

well it is 10 days into the new year and i still struggle to get everything in order. too many things just can't seem to get done in a day. there is always something else popping up. i really am trying to make a conscious effort to do my best each and every day. i am just very tired. i need a day off. a real day off. but that will most likely happen when i retire i guess. but then again i never see myself ever retiring, so yeah. trudging through. trying to get on top of my game. that is the motto for this year...

HALLOWEEN

HALLOWEEN IS A CHANGING HOLIDAY THESE DAYS. GRACE IS STILL A LITTLE TOO YOUNG TO TRICK OR TREAT. SO CAROL AND HUNTER SWUNG BY FOR A PHOTO OP. SUCH CUTIES.

GRACE UPDATE

SO IT IS SAFE TO SAY THAT GRACE IS FINALLY SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT. WE LET HER CRY FOR A LITTLE BIT NOW AND SHE SEEMS TO GO RIGHT BACK TO SLEEP. WOO HOO.

NOTHING

JUST AN UPDATE. EARL DIDN'T EVEN PRODUCE ANY RAIN FOR US. THE FORECASTERS WERE WRONG YET AGAIN....

HURRICAN EARL

SO, IT SEEMS WE MIGHT ACTUALLY GET A HURRICANE TO COME WITH IN STRIKING DISTANCE OF LONG ISLAND. PROBABLY THE CLOSEST ONE SINCE I WAS A WEE LAD. IF IT HITS IT MIGHT ACTUALLY BE A GOOD THING. THERE ARE A LOT TREES THAT NEED TO COME DOWN. WAY TOO MANY DISEASED TREES THAT NATURE NEEDS TO WEED OUT. THE ONLY DOWN FALL IS THAT I AM GETTING A HALF COW BUTCHERED AND DELIVERED ON SATURDAY AND IT WOULD SUCK IF WE LOST POWER FOR A WEEK OR MORE. THAT WOULD BE ONE HELL OF A BAD INVESTMENT ON MY PART. THAT IS IF I DON'T JUST RUN OUT AND BUY A GENERATOR TO KEEP THE FREEZERS UP AND RUNNING! WISH US LONG ISLANDERS LUCK!

UPDATE

SO THINGS ARE MOVING BY AT A RECORD PACE THESE DAYS. THE SUMMER IS OVER. GRACE IS ALMOST SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT AND I STILL DON'T HAVE MY ACT TOGETHER TO TAKE MY EXAM. AFTER THIS WEEKENDS FESTIVITIES I AM GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE A MAJOR CHANGE. ALSO I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY. I HAVE TO TRY AND START BUILDING BACK UP THE COFFERS.
HERE IS A PICTURE OF GRACE AND HER NEW FRIEND HUNTER FROM LAST WEEKEND.

Grace update

well we had Grace's christening over the weekend. that went pretty well. she is such a cutie. she had the worst nights sleep though after that. i didn't make it into work Monday because of it. I joked and said maybe she was rejecting god. ha ha ha.

SLEEP

WELL GRACE FINALLY HAS BEEN SLEEPING MORE. SHE HAS ONLY BEEN WAKING UP ONCE AT AROUND 4 OR SO. THINGS ARE STARTING TO LOOK PROMISING FOR A NORMAL SLEEP SCHEDULE. SO I HAD MY FIRST FATHER'S DAY. I HAD TO FIRST TAKE OUT MY WIFE'S PARENTS FOR BREAKFAST. THEN CAME HOME AND CUT THE LAWN. THEN OFF TO MY DADS FOR A BBQ. THEN I GET HOME AND SIT DOWN TO PLAY MY NEW VIDEO GAME I HAD GOTTEN FOR FATHER'S DAY, ONLY TO GET INTO TROUBLE FOR IT. I THOUGHT I WAS BEING "GIVEN" SOME TIME TO "ENJOY" MY FATHERS DAY PRESENT ON FATHERS DAY. BUT I WAS MISTAKEN. I CAN'T WIN. I OFFER TO HELP AND DO THINGS TO ASSIST IN THE CRAZINESS THAT IS OUR HOUSE AND LIFE. BUT I AM GREETED WITH ANGER AND HATE. I RESIGN MYSELF TO MISERY I GUESS. WHATEVER. AT LEAST I AM EXTREMELY BUSY AT WORK, SO I CAN AT LEAST IMMERSE MYSELF IN THE CHAOS THAT IS MY JOB.

Still no end in sight

Well grace got up about every two hours last night. I guess the whole teething thing is kicking in. Mel is shot, I am tired, and work is crazy busy. I have been working almost 60 hours a week for the past few weeks with the exception of last weekend. I took a few days off to try and regroup. Didn't help much. There is no such thing as sleeping late anymore.. ugh. Everyone says it will get better soon. I hope so. I can't wait for Grace to start sleeping during the same hours as the rest of us do.

SPOKE TOO SOON

WELL GRACE NOW SEEMS TO WAKE UP WITHOUT FAIL BETWEEN 2-3:00 AM NOW AND IT IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO GET HER TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AFTER THAT. MEL AND I ARE SO TIRED. I HAVE BEEN WORKING MANY HOURS LATELY AND AM JUST TOTALLY BEAT. I HOPE THINGS GET BETTER SOON.

SLEEP ACHIEVED!

SO GRACE SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT! I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS JUST A FREAK OCCURRENCE BUT BOY AM I ROARING TODAY. IT IS AMAZING WHAT AN UNINTERRUPTED NIGHT SLEEP WILL DO FOR YOU. WOO-HOO.. HOPEFULLY THIS IS A NEW TREND. WE SHALL SEE I GUESS.

NEED MORE SLEEP

SO LATELY GRACE SEEMS TO NOT WANT TO SLEEP IN HER OWN CRIB. WHICH IS KEEPING MEL AND I UP. THE OTHER NIGHT SHE WOULD NOT STOP CRYING FROM ABOUT 1:30 TILL 4:30. ROUGH DAY YESTERDAY JUST TO STAY AWAKE. BUT NOW, LAST NIGHT SHE SLEPT FROM 11:30 TILL ABOUT 4:30. BUT OF COURSE SHE SLEPT IN THE BED WITH US. WHICH I DON'T REALLY MIND, BUT I CAN SEE HOW IT CAN QUICKLY BECOME A HABIT WHICH BOTH MEL AND I DO NOT WANT TO HAPPEN. HOPEFULLY SOON SHE WILL START SLEEPING MORE.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT. AND NEITHER CAN MEL.

16 WEEK MARK

WELL GRACE WILL BE 16 WEEKS TOMORROW. WOW TIME IS MOVING FAST. SHE JUST WENT TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY AND GOT HER SECOND ROUND OF SHOTS (IMMUNIZATIONS) SHE CRIED AND CRIED. THE DOC SAID SHE HAS A SLIGHT HEART MURMUR. HOPEFULLY IT IS NOTHING SERIOUS.

PROGRESS

WELL MY DAD AND HIS CREW SHOWED UP ON SATURDAY TO HELP ME REGRADE THE BACK YARD AND PUT A FENCE ACROSS THE BACK OF THE HOUSE. THANKS AGAIN RICK FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP. AND THANK YOU DAD FOR HELPING US OUT BY BRINGING YOUR CREW OVER..

BEFORE





AND HERE IT IS AFTER

FAST LANE

Time is moving by way too fast these last three months. I can't seem to get everything done. Let alone get time in for studying for my exam. That should be my main priority right now but things keep popping up that I need to handle. I have to get this apartment ready to rent out. My tenants of 4 years just moved out. Bummer, they were good people. Now it is spring and i have ton to do outside. Ryan is home on leave as well. So everything is hitting at once. Not to mention my dad is coming next week to re-grade the backyard and install a fence at the rear of the property.. ugh

3 MONTHS IN

WELL. THE LITTLE GIRL IS 3 MONTHS OLD NOW. SHE IS ALMOST SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT! HOPEFULLY SHE WILL START THE CEREAL THING SOON SO SHE CAN START SLEEPING ON OUR SCHEDULE. THAT WILL BE A PLUS. MEL AND I ARE PRETTY TIRED. I WISH I COULD AFFORD FOR HER TO STAY HOME WITH THE BABY WHILE I WORK BUT THERE IS JUST NO WAY.

I AM A DAD!

SO. STILL TRYING TO GET USED TO THIS WHOLE DAD THING. THE BABY IS VERY CUTE. I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR HER TO BE ABLE TO TALK AND REACT TO THINGS. IT IS FRUSTRATING RIGHT NOW WITH HER SO SMALL. MY WIFE IS DOING A GREAT JOB TOO. SHE IS SUCH A TROOPER. I DON'T THINK I WOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE HAVING TO GET UP EVERY TWO HOURS. SHE IS TRULY AMAZING.

ALWAYS MORE DRAMA

I GUESS THIS CAN ALL GO UNDER THE HEADING OF "NOTHING IS EASY THESE DAYS". WHY CAN'T EVERYONE JUST GET ALONG? I DON'T SEE THE POINT IN EVERYONE ALWAYS BEING SO ANGRY. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO STAY MAD AT SOMEONE. I HAVE NEVER BEEN GOOD AT IT. EVEN PEOPLE I DON'T GENERALLY LIKE, I USUALLY CAN'T EVEN DO THAT RIGHT. I FIND THAT IT IS JUST EASIER TO ROLL ALONG WITH THINGS. LIFE IS DEFINITELY TOO SHORT TO WASTE TIME FESTERING HATRED TOWARDS OTHERS. I CAN'T SEE THE POINT IN PERPETUATING ILL FEELINGS TOWARDS OTHERS. WITH 10 WEEKS UNTIL MY FIRST CHILD IS BORN I WILL DO MY BEST TO SHIELD HER FROM AS MUCH OF THE HATE AND DRAMA THAT LIES AHEAD OF HER. WORST OF ALL IT IS MOSTLY FROM MINE AND MY WIFE'S FAMILY. I AM NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT FRIENDS OR ACQUAINTANCES. THEY AT LEAST SEEM TO BE MORE REASONABLE AND COME WITH HARDLY NO DRAMA WHAT SO EVER. SO I WILL WAIT IT OUT. AND IF NEED BE, DISTANCE MYSELF FURTHER FROM ALL THE PLAYER HATERS.

DRAMA

There has been way too much drama these past few days. Between the wedding I attended in Chicago and the renovations taking place at the house, my head is about to explode. hopefully in the next few weeks things will calm down. One can hope.....

THE NEXT YEAR IN OUR COUNTRIES HISTORY

WELL ANOTHER FOURTH OF JULY GONE BY. THE WEATHER WAS PROBABLY THE NICEST IT HAS EVER BEEN IN MY LIFETIME FOR THE HOLIDAY. NOT AS MANY LOCAL FIREWORKS ANYMORE. I USED TO REMEMBER SEEING THE ROAD COVERED IN DEBRIS THE FOLLOWING DAY. THINGS CHANGE I GUESS.

MUD, MUD, AND MORE MUD!

WOW WHAT A TRIP. THE TRAILS WERE THE BEST EVER. MY UNCLE BILL EVEN SUNG THE NATIONAL ANTHEM BEFORE THE RACE.
THERE IS ME HEADING THROUGH THIS HUGE STREAM.

AND HERE IS PAUL FORDING THROUGH!

UP AND COMING

WELL THE WEEKS MOVE BY AT A LIGHTNING SPEED THESE DAYS. ESPECIALLY WITH THE NICER WEATHER. EVEN THOUGH THAT IT HAS RAINED MORE DAYS THAN IT HAS BEEN SUNNY SINCE I GOT MY CAR A FEW MONTHS BACK. I HAVEN'T HAD A LONG ENOUGH STRETCH OF NICE WEATHER TO EVEN GET MY NEW CAR WASHED. WELL THIS WEEKEND SHOULD BE INTERESTING. FINALLY GETTING TO GO QUADING AGAIN. IT HAS BEEN AWHILE. THOUGH THE FORECAST IS SAYING RAIN, IT SHOULD STILL BE A LOT OF FUN. RAIN MEANS PLENTY OF MUD. AND WITH THE ALL THE RAIN WE HAVE BEEN HAVING, IT SHOULD BE REAL FRIGGIN MUDDY. MONTICELLO POKER RUN, HERE WE COME!

THE PARTY

WELL THE PARTY WAS GREAT. THANK YOU TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE WHO SHOWED UP TO SAY GOOD BYE TO OUR GREAT FRIEND BRETT. MISS YOU ALREADY BRO. GOOD LUCK OUT THERE.

GETTING READY FOR THE FIRST PARTY OF THE SUMMER

IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE WE THREW A BASH AT OUR HOUSE. IT SHOULD BE A LOT OF FUN. BUT IT IS UNDER SAD TERMS THOUGH. BRETT, MY LONGTIME FRIEND IS LEAVING US ALL HERE IN NEW YORK AS HE EMBARKS ON THE NEXT CHAPTER OF HIS LIFE. HE HEADS OUT TO CALIFORNIA. HE AND HIS WIFE AND SON WILL BE STARTING A NEW LIFE OUT THERE. I WISH THEM THE BEST. WE NEVER DID GET TO HANG OUT MUCH WHEN HE DID LIVE HERE THESE PAST FEW YEARS. EVERYONE GETS SO BUSY WITH LIFE THAT IT IS HARD TO SEE EACH OTHER AS OFTEN AS WE USED TO. IT WILL BE EVEN HARDER NOW FOR US TO HANG OUT. I AM HOPING THAT AS TIME MOVES FORWARD, WE ARE AFFORDED A LITTLE MORE FINANCIAL SECURITY AND FREEDOM TO VISIT MORE FREQUENTLY. BUT I KNOW FROM A COST AND TIME POINT OF VIEW THAT IT WILL SOMETIME BEFORE WE WILL BE ABLE TO CHILL AGAIN. HOPEFULLY NOT TOO LONG. MISS YOU ALREADY BRO...

NEVER AGAIN

WELL THE WEEKEND WENT BY WAY TOO FAST. IT DIDN'T HELP THAT ME AND THE GUYS DRANK AN ENTIRE BOTTLE OF CHEAP WHISKEY ON FRIDAY. OH MAN. THE HANG OVER WAS HORRIBLE. I SLEPT UNTIL 1PM ON SATURDAY. I HAD DIFFICULTY DOING ANYTHING OTHER THAN LAY ON THE COUCH. NEVER AGAIN

finally

well the cat is out of the bag. i told my father and my step mother. they were so excited. it is nice to see that some people in this world are genuinely excited for us

THE CAT IS COMING OUT OF THE BAG

BIG WEEKEND UP AHEAD. I AM ABOUT TO TELL MY DAD AND STEPMOTHER THE GREAT NEWS. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIS FACE. I THINK OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD, HE WILL BE THE MOST SURPRISED AND EXCITED. I HOPE THE WEATHER HOLDS OUT THOUGH SO I CAN BAR-B-QUE. I THINK I WILL EXPERIMENT WITH SOME JAMAICAN JERK STEAK. I AM STILL NOT A BBQ GRILL MASTER YET, BUT I AM TRYING. I WAS ALSO THINKING OF MAKING SOME REAL ITALIAN PIZZA. I HAVE SOME LEFT OVER MOZZARELLA THAT IS ITCHING TO BE USED.

MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND

WHAT A GREAT TIME. IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAVE HAD SO MUCH FUN PACKED ALL INTO ONE WEEKEND. ROLEPLAYED ON FRIDAY NIGHT AND ATE SOME INCREDIBLE CHICKEN. GOT TO THE RANGE WITH MY FRIEND ED AND SIGHTED IN 3 RIFLES AT 200 YARDS. THEN WE WENT SAILING AND HAD A BBQ. VERY INTENSE! THE WAVES WERE AMAZING IN THE BAY BECAUSE OF ALL THE FERRIES. ON SUNDAY, WE SURPRISED MY GOOD FRIEND BRETT WITH ALL OF HIS FRIENDS AT A BAR FOR 30TH BIRTHDAY IN BROOKLYN. AND MONDAY I GOT TO SPEND SOME VERY PRODUCTIVE TIME IN THE STUDIO. AND THE ENDER WAS MOOSE RIBS ON THE BARBIE! YUM. WHAT A GREAT WEEKEND INDEED

THE BOX

WELL 2 WEEKS AGO I HAD PAUL AND JON OVER FOR DINNER. WE DRANK A BOTTLE OF SCOTCH AND BUILT A BOX FOR SKATING. .

NEEDLESS TO SAY, WE DID NOT SKATE THAT NIGHT

GOOD EATS

SO I MADE VENISON SHEPARD'S PIE LAST NIGHT. IT CAME OUT REALLY GOOD. I WAS QUITE IMPRESSED. ADD YET ANOTHER RECIPE TO MY EVER GROWING BOOK OF TASTINESS.

CONTENT

WELL AFTER A WONDERFUL WEEKEND OF SOLITUDE I HAVE COME TO REMEMBER HOW MUCH I ENJOY IT. I LIKE BEING BY MYSELF. IT HAS A WAY OF FREEING YOURSELF UP TO EXPLORE WHAT YOUR MIND WANTS TO BE CONCENTRATING ON. I GOT MANY OF THE THINGS DONE THAT I HAD SET OUT TO DO AND ALSO GOT SOME MUCH NEEDED VEG OUT ON THE COUCH TIME. IT WILL SOME TIME UNTIL I CAN DO THAT AGAIN. MUCH FUN.

CONFUSION

EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THAT LIFE IS NOT EASY. WELL I CAN OFFICIALLY SAY THAT IT IS DEFINITELY NOT. JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT, THE RUG IS PULLED OUT FROM UNDER YOU AND EVERYTHING IS FUCKED. I AM AT A COMPLETE LOSS FOR WORDS AS TO WHAT TO DO IN MY LATEST PREDICAMENT. I CAN'T MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY ALL THE TIME. BUT THIS TIME AROUND, I WILL HAVE TO BE CIVIL AND CORDIAL AND ALSO SOMEHOW FIT IN MY OWN FEELINGS AND HAPPINESS INTO THIS MESS. FUCK EVERYONE. WHO NEEDS TO BE HAPPY ANYWAY. THE WEEKEND OF SOLITUDE WILL BE GREATLY WELCOMED. I HAVEN'T BEEN ALL BY MYSELF IN A GOOD WHILE.

LONG ISLAND ATV'ING

OK. SO I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD HAPPEN. WE FINALLY DID SOME RIDING ON LONG ISLAND. WE DID NOT HAVE TO RUN FROM COPS OR TRESPASS! IT WAS TOTALLY LEGAL. WHAT A BLAST. ANYONE WHO OWNS A QUAD OR DIRT BIKE ON LONG ISLAND SHOULD DEFINITELY JOIN THIS ORGANIZATION. CHECK IT OUT AND GET ACTIVE.
http://www.lirtc.org/
SEE YOU AT THE NEXT ONE!

PROGRESS

SO I AM FINALLY MAKING SOME PROGRESS WITH MY CHECKLIST OF ALL THE THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO TO QUALIFY TO TAKE MY ARCHITECTURAL EXAM. HOPEFULLY THIS COMMUNITY SERVICE I AM DOING WILL ALL WORK OUT AND I CAN START TO PREPARE FOR MY EXAM. KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED THAT EVERYTHING GOES WELL.

AMMUNITION SHORTAGE

OK. SO IT IS GETTING A LITTLE SCARY THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN ORDER .22 CALIBER AMMO ONLINE RIGHT NOW. ALMOST EVERYWHERE AMMO IS OUT OF STOCK. VERY STRANGE. BUT AFTER GOING TO THE RANGE THE OTHER DAY, PEOPLE WERE FIRING IT OFF LIKE NO ONES BUSINESS. THE PLACE WAS SO PACKED, YOU HAD TO WAIT FOR A TABLE TO OPEN UP. I GUESS IN THIS ECONMIC DOWNTURN, THE GUNS AND AMMO BUSINESS IS SOARING. EVERYTHING AR-15 RELATED IS OUT OF STOCK EVERYWHERE! THESE COMPANIES ARE WORKING AROUND THE CLOCK TO TRY AND FILL ORDERS. IT IS QUITE INSANE

the new whip

So it is official.
I have filled up my new car with my first tank of gas (if came with a full tank). I am about to hit the 500 mile mark on my ride home from work today!

SAFE JOURNEYS MY FRIEND

My good friend Ryan has left again. Back to Iraq for another 6 months. It is always a sad time when he leaves. He is always here just long enough that you get used to him being around and you forget that he has to go. This Saturday I woke up and completely expected him to snoozing on the pull out couch. But alas! it was empty. Goodbye my friend. I will miss you much. I hope the next 6 months goes fast for you. love you always bro.

CARS

SO, DESPITE ALL MY WORRIES, I DID SOMETHING I AM STILL IN SHOCK OVER. I BOUGHT A NEW CAR YESTERDAY. CAN I AFFORD ANOTHER MONTHLY PAYMENT? I DON'T KNOW. WILL I MAKE IT WORK? I HAVE TO.

THRIED MUCH E ECONOMY

OK, SO FOR WHATEVER STRANGE FUCKING REASON, I HAVE WORRIED ABOUT THE ECONOMY LONG ENOUGH. I DON'T WANT THIS TO CONSUME ME. EVEN THE WHOLE JOB SECURITY THING, DONE WORRYING. WHY? YOU MIGHT ASK. I THINK SO MUCH MORE OF THIS SITUATION IS BASED ON PEOPLES PANIC MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. IT JUST HAS TO BE.
I WENT TO GO LOOK AT SOME NEW CARS WITH MY WIFE YESTERDAY. BOTH THE TOYOTA AND VW/ SUBAURU DEALERSHIPS WERE FILLED WITH PEOPLE. I THOUGHT THIS WAS THE NEW ECONOMY OF DEPRESSION AND RECESSION? THEN WHY WERE THESE PLACES FILLED? I THINK A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE THINKING THERE IS GREAT DEAL TO BE HAD BECAUSE THEY THINK ALL OF THE CAR COMPANIES ARE IN TROUBLE. WHO KNOWS. IT WAS STRANGE TO SEE CERTAIN PLACES OF COMMERCE EMPTY AND OTHERS PACKED.

NET BOOKS

OK. I MUST SAY THAT I BOUGHT A REFURBED NET BOOK, AND I AM LOVING IT. I AM ON A COMPUTER/LAPTOP ALL DAY AND IT IS A LOT OF FUN TO JUST POKE AROUND ON THE WEB AFTER HOURS. I AM REALLY DIGGING THE LINUX OS AS WELL. KIND OF FUN TO SEE WHAT ELSE IS OUT THERE.

BACK TO AMERICA

WELL MY GOOD FRIEND RYAN HAS FINALLY COME HOME ON LEAVE FROM IRAQ. VERY EXCITED TO HAVE HIM BACK EVEN IF IT IS ONLY FOR A FEW DAYS. WELCOME HOME MY GOOD MAN.

ALMOST HOME

SO MY VERY GOOD FRIEND RYAN, WHO IS CURRENTLY DEPLOYED IN IRAQ WAS SUPPOSED TO GO ON LEAVE YESTERDAY. HE WAS SCHEDULED TO HEAD HOME ON A PLANE YESTERDAY, SO THAT BY TODAY HE WOULD BE BACK WITH ME HERE IN NEW YORK. A FUCKING SANDSTORM HIT AND NO PLANES COULD FLY OUT! CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE THAT? SO NOW I WAIT TO HEAR FROM HIM TO SEE WHEN HE WILL BE HERE. BUT IT WON'T BE TONIGHT. BUMMER. SAFE TRAVEL SPUNK. CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE HOME.

MISTAKES AND WONDERINGS

YEAH EVERYBODY MAKES THEM. SOMETIMES SMALL ONES, OTHER TIMES LARGE ONES. BUT I ALWAYS SEEM TO MAKE THEM. MORE OFTEN THEN NOT THEY REALLY ONLY SEEM TO PISS OFF ONE PERSON. AND IT SUCKS. MOST OF THE TIME I JUST DON'T THINK AHEAD. I GUESS THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY PROBLEM THROUGHOUT MY LIFE. IF THE THOUGHT NEVER CROSSED MY MIND ABOUT SOMETHING, DOES THAT TRULY MEAN I AM A BAD PERSON? PROBABLY NOT, BUT I HATE PISSING PEOPLE OFF FOR MY ACTIONS OR MY INACTION'S.

music

So, Sirius is about to start charging more money for you to keep the ability of listening online. which totally sucks cause I listen all day at work and of course in the car. so I think instead of spending more money for the service I will start exploring other online outlets for my work music. I am listening to one right now that so far seems great. it is called somafm (http://somafm.com) it is pretty good. it doesn't appear to have comercials which is quite important to me. check it out.

THIS SUCKS

I HATE GETTING SICK. I GUESS I REALLY CAN'T COMPLAIN THOUGH. IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE HAD THE SNIFFLES AND THE COUGHS.

LOUSY SMARCH WEATHER

I CAN'T BELIEVE THE SNOW WE GOT! WHOA! CHECK OUT THESE PICTURES OF YESTERDAYS STORM

ECONOMY

IT IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME A BIT. I WENT TO THE STORE WITH MY WIFE THE OTHER DAY. SHE NEEDED TO BUY A FOLDING TABLE, SO WE WENT TO OFFICE MAX. IT WAS LIKE A GHOST TOWN IN THERE. AS WITH MOST STORES LATELY, I FEEL LIKE I AM THE ONLY ONE IN THERE. SCARY SHIT. I GOT A VERY DISTURBING CALL THE OTHER DAY FROM A FORMER CO-WORKER AND FRIEND. HE TOLD ME HE WAS GETTING LAID OFF. HE IS IN THE SAME LINE OF WORK AS ME AND IT REALLY HIT HOME. IT IS ALMOST SURREAL HOW ALL AROUND ME PEOPLE ARE STRUGGLING TO FIND WORK IN THE CONSTRUCTION INDUSTRY AND I AM UP TO MY EYEBALLS IN WORK. I CAN'T SEEM TO CATCH UP ON THE AMOUNT OF DRAWING I STILL HAVE TO DO. I FEEL BAD FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I AM THANKFUL FOR MY OWN EMPLOYMENT. IT IS JUST VERY STRANGE....

HISTORY

LIZWATO WAS BORN OUT OF THE NICKNAME "LIZARD" GIVEN TO HIM BY HIS GOOD FRIEND JIMI B.
WAY BACK IN THE DAY WHEN I FIRST GOT A MODEM AND SET UP THE WEB WITH AOL, I NEEDED A SCREEN NAME. LIZARD WAS TAKEN ALREADY AND MY GOOD FRIEND AUSTIN USED TO JOKE WITH ME IN A FAKE MEXICANO ACCENT AND SAY ME "HEY LIZAYTOE" HENCE THE NAME WAS BORN AS MY ONLINE HANDLE. ONLY INSTEAD I SPEALT IT LIZWATO (THERE SHOULD BE A LINE ABOVE THE "A") I THEN STARTED TO USE LIZWATO FOR THE NAME OF THE MUSIC I CREATED AS WELL AS OTHER CREATIVE THINGS SUCH AS POEMS, ARTWORK, AND PHOTOGRAPHY. THE IMAGE TO YOUR LEFT IS LIZWATO (ME) AS A ZOMBIE IN A POST APACOLYPITIC WORLD BORN OUT OF MY FRIEND GRASSO'S BRAIN.

THE START OF IT ALL

OK. SO NOW I AM LIKE EVERY OTHER POOR SOUL. TYPING AWAY ON A FRIGGIN BLOG. AS MY WIFE WOULD JOKE, "JUST WAIT AND SEE ALL THE SHIT I'M GONNA BLOG ABOUT". HA!. OH WELL, WHY NOT I GUESS. IT IS PROBABLY GOOD THERAPY FOR ME ANYWAY. WELL.. HERE GOES....ENJOY